Today is day 3 post op from gastric bypass surgery. Most of the pain I feel is gas related. It just won't come out. I wasn't expecting it to be so painful. I was not at all prepared to feel that pain when I awoke from the anesthesia either. Pain in my neck, shoulders and stomach. Gas EVERYWHERE! I was half naked which everyone kept trying to cover up, but I really couldn't have cared less at that point. I really just didn't care if people could see my breasts.
I was being rolled into my final destination room and the gurney guy called me a he. I then loudly replied with "Well hello there, SIR!!!!!" If he was going to call me a he then I was going to make him pay the price for it.
I shot a couple times while in the hospital. The first night at 3am. I just couldn't sleep so I might as well have been moving that damn gas around and getting some new work in. I managed to hold the night nurse hostage for a little while to help me set up the photo. I did a video diary and I shot both other days while I was there too. Lydia Emily came to visit and interviewed me for a good 20 minutes. Following me around and such. I'm grateful she was there, but even more that she pushed me to work for it.
I got home around 530pm last night. The biggest worry I had was that the cats would jump all over my stomach. It happened once when I got home but I was more worried it would happen in my sleep. Well, it didn't because we locked them out. They pawed at the door the entire night. :-(
Last night I was feeling really discouraged that I would fail at this whole thing. But, I think I woke up this morning with a better attitude because I don't feel that as much anymore. It kind of just dissipated. I still have many worries but they are not as overwhelming like last night. I will be fine. I am fine. I can do this.
Today I FEEL motivated.