I feel like I'm not doing enough. I also feel really frustrated with shooting. Yeah, I guess it all goes back to the thought that I'm just not doing enough. It's like I have cat hair all over me and don't know how to get it off. It's always there. Well, I guess I usually always am covered in cat hair. Oh well.
I feel this unspoken pressure all around me. I have a lot of anxiety regarding that. It really doesn't feel good to feel like I'm drowning. Drowning is a big fear of mine. It just seems so shitty to drown. It sounds extremely painful. I guess I just have a lot of fears at the moment.
Today I FEEL anxious.